I was watching a show the other day and something tugged at my heart that I wanted to write about here. The two characters were arguing about something and the daughter said, Mom, you don't need to take care of me anymore. The mom looked at her and said, "I just want you to be six years old again with your little braids and need me". It made me think how much of my identity has been as a mom. When people asked what I wanted to be when I grew up, I said a mom. I also wanted to be a school teacher for a minute, a secretary for a while ( I loved to type) and I am sure numerous other things, but I always wanted to be a mom.
Being a mom is the best thing there is, next to being a grandma. You have to become one to become the other. I think back to each of my children being newborns and then toddlers, then pre teens, and teens, and then adults that you love to spend time with. Just when you get to like them as an adult, they move out. You spend the whole time they are little wishing they are bigger so you can do more things, and then they get bigger and move out. You want them to all come back home.
There is nothing better than having all of them come back to visit and sit around the table and just listening to them talk about what is going on in their lives now and talk about times growing up. It melts my heart. This life is short and the older I get the more I realize just how short it is and that I don't have a ton of years left on this earth. I have enjoyed every minute of watching my kids grow up and now watching my grandkids (hopefully I will get some more) and who knows if I will be around for great grandkids but it doesn't get any better than that.
I want them to still need me....
When you leave this world, you can't take money or things with you, but you can take the memories. I will take the memories of holding those little hands and watching them grow into big hands. Still the same hold on my heart, no matter the size.
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