HOPE

There have been many things over the past couple of weeks that have given me hope.  The sunshine here in this great state of Colorado is one of them.  Talks in church, friends checking in on me, seeing my grandkids smiles, still having people tell me that they are praying for our family, helping someone else going through a similar pain.  We all need hope. 
Somehow Kami lost hope.  I don't know how or at what point along the way but in order to do what she did, she must have lost hope.  This is a tough world we live in and we can be dragged down by the everyday parts of it.  I don't care who you are, there are times in everybody's lives that they become overwhelmed and can feel hopeless.  Fortunately for most people these are fleeting moments and we can all get back up but for some, they get in that pit of despair and they don't see a rope to get out even though it's there, it just might be in the shadows.    Right after Kami died, I was in that pit.  Thankfully I could see the rope, I didn't use it right away but I did see it.  I am hopeful that I will see Kami again, I am hopeful that people will see that this was a permanent decision to a temporary problem and if they find themselves in the same circumstances, they will figure out how to just get by with a temporary decision.  Life is full of choices, make wise ones. 
I hope this blog will help someone, I know it has helped me and as I have looked back over them, I can see where I was in the pit.  I spent a lot of times on my knees this past few months.  Every single day, I pray that Kami will know how much I love and miss her and to please take care of her until I can see her again.  I hope she feels that love.  I hope she is at peace!