Relief

I'm not sure that relief is the correct term but I will use it for this post.  Today Jeff Rodocker was sentenced to 60 years to life in prison for his latest crimes.  It was with mixed emotions that I went to the sentencing.  Nothing will bring Kami back.  However, the fact that he will be locked up and unable to prey on young women and hurt them is huge.
I met one of the victims today also.  She looks so young and so relieved.  She is alive.  That is the important thing.  He didn't take her down to the total depth that she could have hit.  I am incredibly grateful to the prosecutors that tried this case and to the one's that represented Kami.  They were all there for his sentencing.
A few of the jurors that had found Jeff guilty came to the sentencing also and I was able to shake their hands and tell them thank you from the bottom of my heart. They were also full of emotion from sitting on the jury and hearing about the awful things Jeff did.  They have my deepest respect.
Jeff did incredible things to these two women.  I know there are countless others and I don't like to think about what he must have done and did to  Kami.  She was in her own little hell.
When he walked in, he was wearing the gray prison jumpsuit and sandals.  He had chains on his ankles and wrists.  I moved over and sat behind someone so I didn't have to look at him.  He did not get up and speak or take responsibility at any point during the trial or today.  I wish at some point he would have said he was was sorry or admitted guilt but that is too much to ask I guess.
 It is so hard for me to fathom that there is pure evil out there and my daughter unfortunately came in contact with it.  I am thankful for a justice system that worked.  You seem to hear about the negative things with justice but this had a very positive outcome.
Kami would have been 25 coming up on the 27th of May.  25 years ago I got to hold that blond haired blue eyed baby girl in my arms and thanked my heavenly father for her.  I am grateful that the lord had enough faith in me to be her mom.  I may not have been the best mom to Kami but I tried my hardest and would have given my life for hers.
I love you Kami Ann Harper.
http://kdvr.com/2017/05/15/drug-dealer-convicted-of-kidnapping-and-sexually-assault-sentenced-to-60-years/